What is the Worst Case Scenario?

Fighting the FEAR Within Mindful of My Mental Challenges

by Marie A. Abanga


What is the Worst Case Scenario?

I was in panic mode; I was very restless; sleep was eluding me and that coupled with other issues I had been having, meant nothing short of danger. Danger especially for my fragile mental and emotional well-being; a well-being already made very fragile by the sudden and very painful demise of my fondest and dearest sibling brother after 18 grueling years with epilepsy and mental disorders. I constantly reached out to mum and it was then that she asked me the question which sparked this other memoir of mine. What is the worst case scenario she asked? After several exchanges with her and with my shrink and another close friend, I began to layout what makes up the content of this memoir. It is my journey of fighting the FEAR within. I came to learn of two different definitions of FEAR; Fold Everything and Run or Face Everything and Rise. I recently came across another one; False Emotions Appearing Real. Yes, I largely have fought FEAR pretty much all my life and, in most of its dimensions. I think and know we each have too. Yet, I believe and hope that sharing my journey in my usual candour, and yes without fear or favour, shame or stigma, may help someone else to realize they are not alone in their own “inner fights”. I hope many come to realize that the 'worst case scenario' often gets that worse first in the mind, but that with help and positive thinking, we can win such 'fights'.  


You are cordially invited to the Twin Launch of My brother's Journey from Genius to Simpleton and the Gbm-em centre for epilepsy and mental well-being in Cameroon.

The event will take place on the International Day of people with Disability. We often consider only those with a physical impediment as beingdisabled. It is high time mental illness got the equal attention as physical illness. Both are challenging and disabling.

Even venue: City Hall Buea South West Region

Time: 1 pm

RSVP: His Excellency the Governor of the South West Region

VOVAwardFTMHIn August 2014, when I was back home to burry my brother, two significant events took place. Primo, I was a guest, one of the first of its kind, to be invited to the famous national radio show FrankTalk, to speak on Mental Health in general. I ofcourse drew from my late brother's journey and mine as well.


 On  the ocassion of the launch of my second memoir: My Brother's Journey from Genius to Simpleton, there will be free kindle downloads of my two books. I hope they make a goodread.